Little did I know, you would be the one to tear it down. Every “I love you”, “I’m so happy with you”, “I’m in love with you” seemed to be another brick to the wall between us and the world. It didn’t last but for a few minutes, but I want you to know I would go through the pain of you breaking my heart all over again just feel what I felt in those few minutes.Īlthough it seemed, at times, as if we were rock solid and nothing could divide us, we were fragile. I remember the way your hand felt in mine and how it lightly trembled because you were nervous. I remember the moon lighting your face and creating the most beautiful sparkle in your eyes. Remember laying in the grass by the water? I remember thinking life could not possibly become any better for me than it was in that very moment. I just want you to think back for a second to the way you felt that night I first kissed you. I did some stupid things, but I did not say those hurtful things. I would have never said those things to you. They even got in my phone and sent you some things that were hurtful, and it was embarrassing on my part. Unfortunately, I believe some “friends” misinformed you on things. I wish I had been given the chance to explain some things to you, though. Alcohol makes one say and do irrational things – especially when the heart is broken. I admit, I had some struggles with an addiction I was fighting at the time, but, thankfully, I’ve fought through that, and I’ve been sober for over a year now. I’m here to say that the person you fell in love with is the same person sitting here typing this message to you right now. I’m not angry at him because he has you and I don’t. I have the slightest bit of lingering hope that something will lead you to this site, your eyes to these words, and your mind back to what we used to be. Chances are, if you are reading this, you are here for the same reason I am, and I can say “mission accomplished”. It frustrates me that this is the only way I can convey my thoughts to you- not knowing if you will ever see this, but I had to give it one last shot.
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